friends comments

dear jo,
my friends are commenting on my behaviors and they are saying that am acting weird and it is very obvious. am not sure about it ...i thought am sooo coool and stuff but it seems that i should keep better care on my actions and what am talking about...... this aint good because am insecure without their comments , so i shouldnt be more bothered about what am doing and saying....but after all i think this is wat friendship is all about isnt it?!! but am still annoyed but not from themselves more like from myself ...how come am acting weird and i cant see it. pray for me jo . it seems that i need the prayers real hard

i shouldnt care

dear jo,
      check this part of a story that i just imagined.........


 she found herself standing infront of him...yes him the love of her life or so she thinks........ she looked at him coldly and said "hey...how are you doing?" he answered cautiously "fine! u??! "
-"great...nice meeting you" and started to go
-"why do you act as if you dont care!!!" he shouted behind her
she turned around slowly and said furiously "because i shouldn't!!"
- "but you do!!" he said in a surprised  tone
at that point she was really angry she moved fast toward him and said in a low scary voice "so you know that i do care!!! then what the hell is wrong with you!!! it seems like all that matters to yu that i keep on caring so you can feel good " there was a long awkward pause she was doing all she can to stop her tears from skipping her eyes.... no matter how hard she tried a tear eventually escaped which made her even more damn angry "just go away" she said slowly ""am on the mission of forgetting you and it won't take long, do you know why...because you don't deserve" she added..........now she wasn't just angry with him she was even angrier with herself because he sounded bitter .................. he didnt move not a step and even didnt have the guts to speak and explain himself....so she turned again slowly and moved away....she was so tired and thick and she moved really slowly........it seemed like ages before she finally reached the door of her home.....
                                                                   the end